At a certain season we grow tired of legs walking, eyes seeing, mouth eating and, yes, of ‘I being I’. We want to sleep, to dissolve, to dream of some sweet stream singing its peaceful song. As this is the season now, and the month is January, I connect this feeling strongly with the period which Christians refer to as Epiphany. We talk loosely about ‘having an epiphany’ or going through an epiphany experience. What does this mean? In essence, we’re talking about an experience of enlargement; a kind of mathematical translation whereby our normal inner form is temporarily expanded into its cosmic counterpart: an all-seeing, all-understanding eye on the world. Conversely, one could say that the cosmic ‘I’ contracts into its physical self and confers infinite release. This was the situation with regard to the baptism in the Jordan. In fact this was the exact intention of baptism by total submersion: to effect this ‘release’ of self into cosmos and cosmos into self. Therefore we can relate the experience back to the mundane desire to dream of some sweet stream singing its peaceful song.

Ah, to give up the body and this dull, repetitive life on earth! A feeling so typical of the first month of the year. Unfortunately, what the body represents is far, far deeper than we normally realize. You could say that we are ‘submerged’ in our bodily nature just as in the baptism we are submerged in water. It is far more difficult to climb out of it than dreams and wishes suppose. Through meditation and, for example, mindfulness on the passage of the seasons, you can gain a foothold, build a shelter in the world beyond the body, to which you can return through effort when you need to. But another possibility opens up. The mouth, as well as taking in food, is there for speaking; the eyes, apart from dully seeing, are there to revere – for revering; the legs, routinely walking, can also ascend; and the ‘I’, so much accustomed to simply being, can radiate outwards through its own nature. In short, the cosmic self can live, awakened, in the small being we consider to be ourself.

This is the greater meaning of the epiphany experience and one which translates our mundane normality into something of far greater significance.

Walk

One foot before another all day long

through all the pace and shuffle life can hold;

and then a sleep in lightness, peace and song,

till worlds have moved and new life can unfold.

I’m searching still for where my Maker named

the path I have to follow – set it straight;

for all my aberrations I’m not blamed:

I’ll walk once more the way He did create.

Companion

My legs will tire of walking, eyes seeing,

mouth eating and, yes, I being I too long.

I wish to quit them, sleep and dream of being

beside some stream which sings a peaceful song.

And yet my mouth can speak, my eyes revere,

my legs ascend, and I companion gods.

So with all this I’ll find that greater fear

that shapes me up to life where life applauds.

Best wishes, today,

Landar

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The savor of life is very much connected with doing the right – the hidden right, not the ostentatious one which acts in order to be seen. But in reality the hidden is spread out around us all the time, like a clear and shining light – like an alternative world. Time itself runs in two dimensions: the one of nature, where events happen and pass as naturally as day passes into night; and the moral continuum where only spiritual beings may walk. This, in the end, is proof that the human being is a spiritual being: life loses its savor – the salt goes out of the salt – if as a person you fail to pay heed to the pull exerted by the hidden world. For the poet this world is the source of all true verbs and nouns. For other professions it will have its equivalent significance.

Yes, there is any amount of possibility for the ambitious to accumulate possessions and signs of success. But these all fall into the category of what passes into night. And on their own they do not constitute the savor of the salt – they simply form the body of the salt, its crystalline structure. How many a person do you see whose life may be rich, even famous, but who appears completely dried out? Of course it’s not for the idle onlooker to judge another person’s life, but in many cases you can’t help feeling that someone has abandoned the living current in favor of accumulation.  Needless to say the material world trades on this.

The point at stake is doing the right – seeing the opportunities within everything you do to serve the hidden world. You may be able to see where other people stand within that world at a particular time – it is the world of confluences, of movement and true opportunity. You might be able to play a part, to free an obstacle – in whatever way is best-suited to your abilities. Perhaps it’s just a question of being a human being at the right moment. But for the duration of that activity you are a spiritual being in a spiritual world, the salt has its savor, and you have done something which will not pass into the night.

All this might seem obvious: doing the right is not a new concept. But the world is hurtling down a passageway which leads only to darkness. It wants to obscure the inner heart and mind. To be aware of where you stand in relation to the world of light and life is to create a future and to prevent the world itself from passing into the night.

Mattered

Now here I am in muttered imitation

of everything that better sings its song -

the careless bird which knows no limitation,

the stately stars with voices clear and strong.

Yet in their silence they acknowledge me,

whose line and verse is learned outside of time,

whose song is neither mattered in degree

nor layered with earth in sequence or in rhyme.

Better

So if my salt should lose its trusted savor

and leave the taste of life distressed and flat,

I’ll search again for its more subtle flavor:

the crystalled sea and shimmering salt-flat.

So little time is left to do the right

inside a life as brief as nature’s verse;

but in a single morning chance may light

to lift the better from the sunken worse.

Best wishes, today,

Landar

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A soft coat of wind, tree-lined

sun; blackbird sings my heart

across the air.

Landar

As the year grows darker – and, by analogy, life grows darker – it’s natural to look in unexpected places for meaning and hope. As I mentioned before, the low angle of the sun’s rays highlights corners and edges of things which normally remain hidden – for example, crystals in tiny caves and openings. By analogy, in life itself there are lines of force visible at this time to those who look. Passing on from the mineral to the plant world, you can’t help but feel that nature withdraws into itself to its deepest point in order to let the inner meaning of its existence shine out: the flower which is the essence of its being. What is most concealed is most radiant. And again, by analogy, you look for the truest, deepest image of life in yourself. Then – perhaps with a little trepidation – you move on from the mineral and plant worlds to that of the animals. What does the darkest time of year mean for them?  At this point we’re talking about sentient creation – awareness, consciousness which tingles with life but which is not notably self-conscious or self-aware. The senses therefore lead the way. Animals in the dark and cold will look for shelter, for warmth, for nourishment and – more importantly – they will instinctively look for the guiding wisdom of the world to provide them with what they need. Our human senses and instincts then, by analogy, form a line like the animals and move towards the source of replenishment. Our consciousness does not even play a part in this – the instincts have a wisdom of their own.

The human being will finally arrive – the fourth of the kingdoms. There is no human analogy for this kingdom – it is its own analogy. The structure of life, the flower of life, the instinct of life and – finally – the Self of life. These are the four stages which are traditionally represented in the four weeks of Advent or – in pagan terms – the month leading up to the rebirth of Light at the midwinter festival, and which play themselves out as if in a great dream.

Sanctum

All my senses rush up to the spring

where light arrives in silence of the night;

and there they quench their thirst like waiting beasts

which spent their lives in acting out their role.

Thus sight and hearing, touch and taste and smell,

with all the other senses tucked inside,

have leaped ahead, and now my sloping form

is last to reach the sanctum, tired and slow.

Animals

Perceptions wait outside, while hungry senses

race ahead to fill themselves with pure

sensation needing neither thought nor comprehension

to bask in light’s first source and know its name.

Then when the senses are done, the body -

their master and their slave – can sleep, and dream

of times when all the animals were one

in a heavenly garden where blood was never spilt.

Best wishes, today,

Landar

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It is not true for one minute that plants live for earth, for sun, for wind, for rain, or tremble before the far-off ravaging fire, lightning, storm or flood. They live only for the flower which has existed in them since birth. In vain we wait for sap to tell its truth, for life itself to divulge its secrets. Its sole aim, its only goal, is to make itself an image of the truth it was born with. To this extent earth, water, air and fire are only contributors to the purpose life has in mind; any attempt to make the four elements the cornerstone of either natural or moral philosophy will always come to nothing. They are only servants. The attempts to peer into the mysteries of nature by breaking it down into its component parts will simply yield more component parts, and still more, until we are left with a fractured mosaic of something which was once a grand image.

But even the grand image itself is nothing compared to what the plant knows when it feels the gentle wind stirring about it, the sun’s low rays enkindling it with warmth, the tiny streams of water circulating around its roots, and the cold earth preserving it for spring. It gives itself completely to the flower which is to come. It cannot tell what it knows and we cannot ask it to do so. And that is why philosophy must bow to faith. It is why all rigid truths must give way to hope. And it is the reason why all creation springs up for love alone. Faith, hope and love – but the greatest of these is love:

Through the shining patina on the stones I come,

thirsty as a pilgrim for what seeps and stills,

to where the silent sap conceals its will.

There beside a fountain of rest I wait

for sap to share its mind and heart with me.

Instead I hear tales of ancient pine,

of springing boughs of fir, and long, in God’s name,

for the flower which will winter on that tree.

Purpose

Yet all the plants say nothing for themselves

of how they rose and how they clasped the sun;

they have no thought of wind or star of far-off

dangerous fire and how these things affect them.

Their sole purpose, their only inclination,

is the flower which has lived in them since birth;

and if I could I’d be as true as them,

never to sway though life fills me to the brim.

Best wishes, today,

Landar

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The day is coming when soul and sound, when self and sight will be one. It will be the time when cosmos and consciousness will live inside each other. And at the heart of both there will be a birth, a newborn child. This is the meaning of Advent in the Christian year – a long, slow growth through all of time to the point at which the meaning of life, the perfect human being is born. And it’s a laborsome process too, through all the realms of earth in which the very foundations of our life were laid down. Thus the shining minerals, the sleeping plants dreaming of sun, the rapt, attentive animals pursuing life and finally – finally – the human being conscious of rising through all these things. And all this in four weeks!

It is the time when inner and outer experience each other in mutual interchange; when my consciousness seems to rhyme in the moisture coating the day; when the sun keeps every precious moment wrapped in faith; when the cosmic poetry of creation wakes with me in the morning.

The expansion of consciousness is a gift of nature but we only win back the cosmos through our own efforts. It is waiting to be won – not by storm or acquisition but by gentle birth. I believe this is true whether or not you are a Christian. But the Christian imagery leads up to this point. A process of labor culminating in the birth of what was always present, what was always waiting for us. A process which wins back the different kingdoms of life. It is the story of the world and of evolution, irrespective of faiths.

I see this in the blue of the sky, hiding behind a screen of righteous cloud. Within my skin the cosmos; within its shell the newborn self appears.

Screen

Now grey clouds roll across the sky

and what was vision of ample blue

is painted over. But not blue itself -

what I conceived was vision

of a perfect birth, a holy time

which heaved and groaned in me

when labor was not pregnant with its name.

A pure becoming, advent-tide of pain

made light with knowing that the gold was mine.

All this behind a screen of righteous cloud.

Wind

Listen! In the rattling of the wind

an angel comes with promise of new birth;

within the closed might of clouds

a sorrow which is joy declares itself.

Can I bring myself over the hill of pain

to see the tired world breathe in life?

Can I hear the touch of wings

where the seasoned wind grows most strong? Listen!

Self

All through the moistured day the time grows close

when outside will be in and inside out;

when cold, creeping appearance will have warmth of heart;

when cloistered heart will know the length of light.

This is the day that I was born to see

and which I also bring into the world:

the day of soul and sound, of self and sight;

within my skin the cosmos, within

its shell the newborn self appears.

Best wishes, today,

Landar

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The seven ages of man Shakespeare described are true. In the life of Shakespeare they were true. You can read the seven ages of man in your own life. The poet does that here:

And once again the surfeit of the season does not want to give way to the paucity of the next. The many will not yield to the few; abundance to the rime of frost. The old would force the clock if it could, to let its inspiration, now demon-filled, last longer. Yet leaves themselves begin their converse with skeletons: their own, which soon will leave their green flesh in the past. And what do I see in this? Myself. I read the runes and see how the shades must jostle for space in a world which is unforgiving of death.

Is autumn an advance on summer? Is winter a progression? It seems not – summer has everything. And yet the earth gives no concessions. And so it is in the seven ages of man: one human being has to cast himself off to let the next one stand free. At the end there is no further costume – the man is complete or is food for the worms, depending on your point of view. In the seven ages of humanity the same is true – each new stage is a boundless gift. Why are we so perplexed about accepting it? Because we read the runes, we see skeletons and shades dancing. We see the leaves, which are ourselves, giving no ground, making no concession.

Then I find myself in a rocky grotto. The leaves tumble; holy icons wink and whisper. I don’t know how new life will open. I turn and face the holy mother. I stand in my own solitude and pray.

Gaze

Then shall I bathe in the wind’s autumnal breath,

or feel the leaves in me release their hold?

Like years they fly and lead me to my death

which lives inside me as well-seasoned gold.

Whose kingdom is it counting on me now

to work with something more than years and days?

And can I journey through it anyhow

although the leaves confound my steady gaze?

Pray

Demon-possessed, the old inspired year

would force the clock right through into the new;

what’s lived in summer’s fullness has no fear

of sacrificing many for the few.

But leaves speak truth with skeletons

and seasons trade their places come what may;

when times grow burdened with their ancient sins

I’ll stand within my solitude and pray.

Best wishes, today,

Landar

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